I want things how they were a year ago. I want to have made the right choice that first time. Why the fuck was I so stupid? Grr.. that's not it! Why did I say that?? No! I want things BETTER than they are now! I'm sad I made that wrong choice, BUT I want to have another chance! The past is gone, but the future lies ahead. I am glad I made the wrong decision, because I needed to know this horrible amount of pain, the kind that doesn't get better after time. Now I am more able, and THAT is why I stick around for a second chance: I feel I can give what is wanted from me.

.. Heh. I'm happier now. All this time I was confused and I've sorted it out. It's not that I'm waiting or regretting so much anymore, no, those are large parts, yes, but the main point is that I AM still around to PROVE I know what I want now, and anything else is irrelevant. What others say to denounce my decision means nothing to me, as long as I have this happiness, atleast for awhile. So.. I do want both of us to be happy, yes, and you are now, yes, but I want a chance to show I am better. I'm ready to stand up for my choice, and protect it, all I need now is a sign to do so.